All in the family

So you wanna know about my family wow thats real intresting. my family is not the most intresting people walking the planet. My Mom is a jesus freak and a compulsive lier my dad tries his best to be a good Dad but in my opinon he is failing horriblely. for the most part i love my family i have two sisters and i had two brothers. (Ryan and Zach RIP) i miss them alot. im the middle child so o guess i go throuogh the most stuff. i try not to let my family get to me but it can get real hard.I realize there my family and thats never going to change but hey can i get a refund or something in exchange. They can be nice when they wanna or there putting on a frount. i laugh because my parents make themselves seem more appealing but dont let them fool you. i dont think there are really any happy times that i could possibly remember over the past sixteen years. can always recall the bad ha ha but yyou dont wanna know all the i think i can remeber one it may not be happy but more sad but at least not badl.
" i walked into my grandma's house and the smell of pound cake filled my senses. i knew why i was there but for that split moment that i smelled that cake i totaly forgot why i was standing there in the first place. my mom came towards me gave me a hug and then it dawned on me once again like it did the whole trip down. My brother was dead and im only here for his funaral tomorrow. At that moment i felt liike crying but while trying to be brave for my mom and little sister sake. I felt the weight of the world come crashing down upon my back. i heard my grandmother in the background yelling for us to close the door we were letting flys in. the gospel music was playing louder than usual and that could only mean one thing my sister was drowing out her thoughts of our long gone little brother. With that of "We lift our hands in the sactuary" there was so much heart ache and sarrow in one room it was to hard to bare. I walked around the house as if i were a ghost seeing through my brothers eyes what he can see form the heaven above. I never wanted to be there i never wanted to see my brother laying in that ice cold blue casket with four Angles on either corner. I can still see his face emotionless laying in the casket my mom falling on the ground form seeing her baby boy only seven years old. i wouldnt have been there i wouldnt have sawin if it was for my very great grandma she said that WERE ALL FAMILY and this is what family does. when your Five and 11 years old But hey were all in the family and that means we all had to go. i saw them lower his casket from the bottem of the limo floor the carpet soaking up my tears i wonder if after five years the tears will stop flowing but im sure its just another reason to hold my head down. My mom always says to me year after year your brothers been dead for 2-3-4 and now he's been gone five years. even though the memory of his lifeless body stil haunts my dreams i know my mom is peacefull because like she said its been five years."

ok so thats the story of my life not real there is much much more but hey what can i say i didnt have the best i wasnt the worest but hey iv gotten through it with only a scratch a bruse and a scar that will never heal ok now im done.