With knowledge comes Suffering

Wow isnt that the truth i mean seriously with great power comes great responsibilty ha ha my favorite saying. I personally think that i have been having "TEEN AGE PROBLEMS" for as long as i can remember.I think the reason why im so mature for my age is because i had to grow up long before my time. i had to know what and how to read devorce papers at the age of six legal and non legal.Looking out for number one is something i have always taught myself. How to do everything that i do. I guess thats why my favorite movie growign up was "Matilida" i knew where she was coming from. I never ever wonderd why it was that i was this way. Now that im sixteen and living with my father i understand where he is comeing from i can identify with adults more than i can with teens my own age sad as it is. Its the reason why i dont have meny friends and why i hate coming to school and dealng with people my own age some of them are just to immature its why i fall asleep in class sometimes. Not to jsutify why i do it i know its worng and i try so hard not to but it becomes a habit when i know that life is nothing but and empty whole and that life truly is ment to live and then let die or that could be my nieave view or prospect of life worng as it could be it could also be right i really dont have any teenage problems because i choose not to have them i get along with my parents why not because i like my mom even though she could burn in hell for all i truly care. i dont really like my dad but hey he is there. my little sister is a pest but what can i do she's ten. my big sister is lost in her own world of living alone because she is only 26 ha ha ha i wonder do i ever have teenage moments i mean i dont do drugs i dont have sex i dont hang out late at night i make decent greads what more could parents ask for who knows i never speak about how i feel towards my family or my friends so then i have no conflics i lock myself in my room so i hear no conflic and i see none i do my best to be me and i cant wait till the day i go to college rather it be Agnes Scott or USC or even NYU those will be the days that im finally Free teenage drama is for the faint at heart the ones that think there parents are stupid well then they want drama i have enough form outside sources other than just teen stuff so i dont need any mor i would fora normal healty realtionship with my parents where we figh basicly every ten mins but i cant id rather just be quite and i think thats how i get through all my suffering.