My Poems this is so random

my own poems


Aziza Patton

American

21st centry

time has come and gone..


time has passed and days have grown shorter but my love for you has only gotten deeper

just the mention of youyr name makes my heart race and eyes water i know in my heart that your the only one i will ever truly loive but it gets harder and harder with each passing day in my mind its like a reoccuring dream that i know will never end its never gonna stop no matter how i tell my self that i no longer love you na dthat thses feelings are just mind tricks its like the farther i get from you the closer you seem to get the more i run the faster you get i know you could care less but i know somewhere what you said was true maybe in another defmwntion or other world but im not a fool i cant keep running in circles like a silly dog chaseing its tale the nights are growing longer and the days shorter my time has finnaly run out and so has all your chances cuz i use to think i needed you to survive well now i know i was wrong....


Aziza Patton

American

21st

PAIN and HEART ACH

there is always going to be pain but if pain is never known when the mind trys to take control of the heart you fake it till you make it no matter how hard the pain beats on your soul you wont give up because to give up or give in would be the worse thing ever we all think the heart is control of the mind body and soul but we forget that the brain is a machine that can lie and die all at the same time no matter the passion you feel no matter the heart ach that comes along you will never be able to mend it you wanna lie to yourself to hopefully make yourself feel better well good luck its better to lie to the heart thats why the mind can take over and youll never know you think you just took your mind off what he or she has done to you or why they left but truth is that they never left there still sitting there in your dreams and in your heart deep down inside you know the truth it makes you cry when your alone it makes you sometimes wanna die jsut for the meer fact that you wont feel there touch whats pain is the mind can lie to you....


Aziza Patton

American

21st centry

MISSING YOU MORE EACH DAY
i want you i miss you but this heart ache is to much for me to handel its takeing over my life i cry in my dreams and when i wake my pillows are soaked form crying the night away i cant even sleep no more your always on mind the rain keeps coming down on my window pane the thounder is the sound of my heart breaking the faster the wind blows the harder i cry why wont you leave me alone but its not your fault that im alone it was own thats why im mad at myself for lieing to myslef for all this time telling myslef that there was hope you might call you might come back but now i know it was all a lie and life is no white pickit fence thats why my heart will always bleed untill that day you come back to fix it the more i cry the less i want you to come back lies are all the same so is crying when it comes to YOU.


Aziza Patton

American

21st Centry

The End.


i use to think love could do no wrong till i woke up one day and you were long gone i thought what we had was something deeper but now i know it wasnt deeper then a hole in the wall i thought you saw in me what i saw in you now my hearts in two i cant cry no more cuz i know its all my fault i listned to a bitchy jealous friend now im layin in the dark with no one to hold me i wish i could here your voice i wishe i could feel your touch till i finaly realize that in my dreams thats where im happy cuz in there i can see us together holding hands and laughing at something you said writting songs and sayin we miss the 90's a time that always made since theres not a moment that wont go by that i wont be missing you but i cant promise you that i will always be waitng right here for you something i can promise which probley isnt much is that no matter who love who i hate or what i do ill always love you thick and thin ill be right here you need me call me im the like the cartoon rerun that just wont go off its heart breaking that there will be no more new epiosdes but truth is everything has to end one day


Aziza patton
American
21st centry
The things i hate about Him

i hate the way you look at me
i hate the way you stare
i hate the way you care
i hate the way i belived in you
i hate the way i cared
i hate you for the pain you give
i hate the way you make me laugh
but most of all i ahte the way you make me cry
i hate you becasue hateing myself for loving you would hurt much less then just hateing you its not just the way you make me feel its the way you take all the pain away and your the one causing me all my pain i hate that you will never know how much truly loved you i love you so much its got me torwn in to i cant keep on living thinking that maybe one day cuz truth is that day has come and gone and know im done hating you.


Aziza Patton
American
21st centry
your so many lies.

Thunder outside my window heart ach beatin on my soul rain falling form the sky makin my eyes sweat im sittin starein out the window callin ya name so close this time so close huh you had me going changin ya ways just ta make me laugh that was all just a silly lie another one of your elaberated sceams to once again trap me makin me think that with me your a changed man so why all the heart ach why all the pain why couldnt you just have left me alone help when i need it but thats all . these lies are beginning to get to much its crushing my heart like a thousand pound weight layin on my chest i think its time that you let go either me or her and then i wonder am i the she that she could be upset about now i seem like a hoe in so many ways when truth is im just a good girl with a good name if it wasnt for you know one would know me so take time to think bout your so many lies cuz today is the day that they all come back to haunt you. last chance you boy you better make it good or your gonna lose the one ya love the one ya hate and the one that you wish you could date. my favorite quoat is " Never leave the one you LOVE for the one you LIKE cuz the one you LIKE will LEAVE YOU for the one they LOVE. see karmas a BITCH aint she rather you love me or you love her its time for you to be a man and step up to the plate or its gonna be way to late.


Aziza Patton
American
21st centry
Love and music

my love will never leave my heart will always bleed dripping like rain drops from my tears so much pain so much tourcher some times i die in my sleep to make the adventure harder im searching for my love i used to know where he was now all i see is the darkness that awaits my casket when its closed for my heart keeps on bleeding the pain will one day kill me but he will never know for all he does is laugh when i wanna pour my heart and soul he holds the key that simply put stops the bleeding but un like doctors he doesnt give a damn its like he has the cure to Aids but he will never come to my aid my soul is with in his heart locked away waiting for the next time we kiss so i sit her heart less souless waiting for the day that he comes back holding that very key that opens the music box that plays our favorite song that day seems so far away im sorry i have to wait for him to grow up nd see the things he's missed for him to realizes that he is truly missed my love will never leave my heart will always bleed i wanna be your diamond and angel up above but one day soon it will be to clear that what am is more than just a friend so as my heart bleeds please dont take to long for the next time you see me i might just be your Angel up above (literaly).

Aziza Patton
American
21st centry
Let go of your dreams.


its time its time i hear mi mind screaming its time its time but my heart continuses breaking its time its time to let him go yes i know so how do i throw my love out the window its hard enough to know that he doesnt want to hold me anymore so how do i let go all the dreams i had the love that i felt the pain that still is inside how does it go away when love is no more i use to think what i said helped you but now i know all it did was kill you the time i spent helping you is now in vain for you cant even remember my name so when someone ask who keep you going you say oh ill be damned before i remember now its time its time for me to let go my hearts still bleeding and yes im still waiting just not for you im waiting for the one to pick up the peics when my heart sharters and i go into and endless sleep ya rhymes i could go crazy for but my words are to die for so whos in the right when love shakes its ugly head and causes me all the dread and anguish but love is wispering in my ear its not her fault that your just a jackass with a good heart ooo thats pain within its self why love when love does wanna love back but the mind can only say no when the heart is no longer in control so i say its time its im ready to let go no more sad nights no more wet pellows soaked with my tears no more pain no more power no more long goodbyes no more short hellos its over and its done but the heart ach lives on that will never go away but its time its time for me to let go of my dreams..

Whats Love got to do with it?

Love is very complex wreather its sex being love , or just loving a friend but no matter how you put it Love is complex. Love has a weird way of always comeing back and biteing you on the butt. you think your so in love with someone or that your so infatuated with them that no matter what they do to you hurt you break your heart even you take it as if its ok all because you LOVE THEM. Women will let Men abuse and use them for sex or treat them as obejects of possesion. Love becomes complex in so many ways when sex is added to the equation the main line guys like to use on girls when they wanna have sex and know the girl is to good to just sleep with them they say

IF YOU LOVE ME THEN PROVE IT TO ME

as if sex is the only way to prove to someone you love them thats a load bull shyite ha ah ha. Family love is complex because some children are born into familys or adoupted by familys that truly couldnt give a red cent for them love them the kid wishes all they want is the love of a mother and a father on which they cant get becasue those parents have no buisness having kids in the first place. the love of a friend is complex especialy when that friend is a boy and a girl together its like the love one another romanticly but love is complicated you could love someone romanticly and the other not give a hoot. you wish and hope that love would one day find you and stay but hey thats like waiting for rain in the saharra dessert useless and disapointing. love will for ever be complicated and stupid because it has become the one thing that can make you wanna get up in the morning and it can also be the reason why you just wanna lay down in your grave complex and harmfull love is a real B......

With knowledge comes Suffering

Wow isnt that the truth i mean seriously with great power comes great responsibilty ha ha my favorite saying. I personally think that i have been having "TEEN AGE PROBLEMS" for as long as i can remember.I think the reason why im so mature for my age is because i had to grow up long before my time. i had to know what and how to read devorce papers at the age of six legal and non legal.Looking out for number one is something i have always taught myself. How to do everything that i do. I guess thats why my favorite movie growign up was "Matilida" i knew where she was coming from. I never ever wonderd why it was that i was this way. Now that im sixteen and living with my father i understand where he is comeing from i can identify with adults more than i can with teens my own age sad as it is. Its the reason why i dont have meny friends and why i hate coming to school and dealng with people my own age some of them are just to immature its why i fall asleep in class sometimes. Not to jsutify why i do it i know its worng and i try so hard not to but it becomes a habit when i know that life is nothing but and empty whole and that life truly is ment to live and then let die or that could be my nieave view or prospect of life worng as it could be it could also be right i really dont have any teenage problems because i choose not to have them i get along with my parents why not because i like my mom even though she could burn in hell for all i truly care. i dont really like my dad but hey he is there. my little sister is a pest but what can i do she's ten. my big sister is lost in her own world of living alone because she is only 26 ha ha ha i wonder do i ever have teenage moments i mean i dont do drugs i dont have sex i dont hang out late at night i make decent greads what more could parents ask for who knows i never speak about how i feel towards my family or my friends so then i have no conflics i lock myself in my room so i hear no conflic and i see none i do my best to be me and i cant wait till the day i go to college rather it be Agnes Scott or USC or even NYU those will be the days that im finally Free teenage drama is for the faint at heart the ones that think there parents are stupid well then they want drama i have enough form outside sources other than just teen stuff so i dont need any mor i would fora normal healty realtionship with my parents where we figh basicly every ten mins but i cant id rather just be quite and i think thats how i get through all my suffering.

All in the family

So you wanna know about my family wow thats real intresting. my family is not the most intresting people walking the planet. My Mom is a jesus freak and a compulsive lier my dad tries his best to be a good Dad but in my opinon he is failing horriblely. for the most part i love my family i have two sisters and i had two brothers. (Ryan and Zach RIP) i miss them alot. im the middle child so o guess i go throuogh the most stuff. i try not to let my family get to me but it can get real hard.I realize there my family and thats never going to change but hey can i get a refund or something in exchange. They can be nice when they wanna or there putting on a frount. i laugh because my parents make themselves seem more appealing but dont let them fool you. i dont think there are really any happy times that i could possibly remember over the past sixteen years. can always recall the bad ha ha but yyou dont wanna know all the i think i can remeber one it may not be happy but more sad but at least not badl.
" i walked into my grandma's house and the smell of pound cake filled my senses. i knew why i was there but for that split moment that i smelled that cake i totaly forgot why i was standing there in the first place. my mom came towards me gave me a hug and then it dawned on me once again like it did the whole trip down. My brother was dead and im only here for his funaral tomorrow. At that moment i felt liike crying but while trying to be brave for my mom and little sister sake. I felt the weight of the world come crashing down upon my back. i heard my grandmother in the background yelling for us to close the door we were letting flys in. the gospel music was playing louder than usual and that could only mean one thing my sister was drowing out her thoughts of our long gone little brother. With that of "We lift our hands in the sactuary" there was so much heart ache and sarrow in one room it was to hard to bare. I walked around the house as if i were a ghost seeing through my brothers eyes what he can see form the heaven above. I never wanted to be there i never wanted to see my brother laying in that ice cold blue casket with four Angles on either corner. I can still see his face emotionless laying in the casket my mom falling on the ground form seeing her baby boy only seven years old. i wouldnt have been there i wouldnt have sawin if it was for my very great grandma she said that WERE ALL FAMILY and this is what family does. when your Five and 11 years old But hey were all in the family and that means we all had to go. i saw them lower his casket from the bottem of the limo floor the carpet soaking up my tears i wonder if after five years the tears will stop flowing but im sure its just another reason to hold my head down. My mom always says to me year after year your brothers been dead for 2-3-4 and now he's been gone five years. even though the memory of his lifeless body stil haunts my dreams i know my mom is peacefull because like she said its been five years."

ok so thats the story of my life not real there is much much more but hey what can i say i didnt have the best i wasnt the worest but hey iv gotten through it with only a scratch a bruse and a scar that will never heal ok now im done.

MY ICON PROJECT

What does my icon symbolize? Need at least three or four absract ideas for my icon.


how does this icon affect the world that surrounds me.

how does this icon effect the world at large -- the larger community


is this icon positive or negative or both in its impact on the world. is the world a better place because of its influence.


5) Harry Potter is my ICON

Icons

The icon that i decided to use was harry potter. Harry Potter has become one of the biggest icons in the world in the past six years. Harry Potter has become the icon for britsh and Amerian children and most adults. When Harry Potter books first came out back in 1997 Harry potter was just another book for young kids to read. but in early 2001 Harry Potter the movie came out introducing the world to a vasly unuseuall place the wizarding world of Harry Potter.. the reason i chose this i con is because Harry Potter is not just an icon in America but every where just like in the first book there isnt a man women or child that dosent know his name. the funny thing about this icon is its an object a book not an actuall person

LOVE AND MUSIC

"My love will never leave my heart will alwasy bleed dripping like rain drops from my tears."
that is the beginnging of my poem love and music this poem reprsense love in a deeper sence then jsut a broken hearrt like so many like to beleive it is. The Hardesrt thing to do people say is let go when you love some so much rather its a family love or a heart felt romantic love. Love comes in so many differnt forms that its sometimes hard o tell when your actually in love with some one. thats what my life has been i can say i love some one but only mean like a brother and nothing more but what so sad is love has been turned into this dangerous four letter word I love you has turned into the hardest thing to say.

The lyrcs in the song Dangerously in love me the world to me

"Iam in love with you ill never leave just keep loving me the way i love you loving me
cuz im dangerously in love with you i cant do this thing called life with out you here with me."
when i first heard this song it reminded me that love is real and that its not just some imaginary thing i read about in books or see on T.V. It made me think that sure not every one is perfect but as long as there is some one loving you there can always be simplicity nothing has to be complicated.